On a solitary walk!

Today there was a rally for AIDS awareness conducted by my college. The walk was from Gandhi statue to Anna square. I wouldn’t say that it was not a long walk, but I enjoyed myself totally. Still my legs are hurting because of the walk but it was FUN! A day to be remembered in my life.

Firstly, the walk was in the beach. I always love walking in the beach be it in the hot sun or in the rain! Whatever it is, It is fun! I don need any friend or and anyone to walk with me. I love being alone at times. It sometimes goes to the extent that I just don’t feel like talking to anyone at all!

The breeze was just too soothing and it was totally refreshing every nerve in my body! There were around 4000 people around me walking in the rally, even my own friends going all cranky( they had totally lost it!) and few were quite thinking that they have to behave very well in the public and the stuff! but I continued to be in my dreamy world! God knows what I was dreaming about! I don remember it!

One horrifying thing was that there where some jobless creatures standing in the road to just look at us and pass comments. They were rating us as though they were looking at something on F TV! Brainless chaps I tell you!

Other than that, the day was brilliant! This walk made me realize a lot of things about myself!
this is one thing i would probably be thankful to my college!

As usual I am back!
This post is just a report on what happened in college today. I am feeling very happy and excited today! Don know for what reason because nothing special happened in college. I was just sitting all alone in coll, except for two hours (I think) Apoo sat with me.
They all left for FM stuff. i was not a part of it and so was sitting in class. I was glued to the new book which I am reading now, riot by Shashi Taroor.

Today we had two entrepreneurial classes and two IT classes and one management accounting hour plus one counseling class! So that tells how boring and tiring the day would have been! But I don know… I am just too enthu and left to myself I guess I will go run the whole stretch of the beach now! I have this super level of energy right now. And I want to go out somewhere preferably beach but I don know. Mostly NO cause I will have to go alone.

But one point is for sure, being alone, doing things alone, and staying alone at home or college has become a routine for me. Before and all, I used to be super excited and happy when I used to stay at home alone. But now, I am getting tired of it! Really tired! Mainly when both my brother and mom go out(my brother always wishes that it has to be that way or it will be some place where I wouldn’t want to go)L. But now really getting sick of it! I have stayed one whole day at home alone without even having to see any human species around me except in the idiot box! Hmmm.. well, chuck it I don wish to go further and spoil my mood. I am happy now;).. so will continue being happy and excitedJ

I came back home at sharp at 5.13pm. and the college got over at 5.05. so from this u can jus calculate the time which I spent in college after it got over( and it takes minimum 10 minutes to come from college to my place). NOT EVEN A SECOND I WAS THERE after it got over. And moreover there s noone to stay with too..

Its exactly three days since I started going to college after Ca exams, and guess what.. I don want to go to college. Never has it happened that I have REALLY REALLY hated to go to school or college but this time, I find it more like a burden! Its so heavy to carry on that I decided to tell it to someone. And I found that I had noone around me. Then, I thought about the blog and now I am posting it online. I don even know whether I should post it or not. But still… I am doing it because I don have anyone to tell to. Rather, I don know how others will react to my problem.

Until the month of September, things were going excellent because Pavi was there with me. Even if Neethu had joined office by that time, we both (me and pavi) spent sometime together after college and so things were going great. After that, my Ca exams and semester exams came up, so I was making myself get involved with a life without the two of them. Things were going fine( thanks to the deliberate effort which I took).

Never in the history of my life have I ever come back from school or college so soon! Nowadays have noone to talk to freely, noone to share my thoughts with, noone to rely on! Rather these days I feel so very depressed that I don’t feel like doing anything, neither do I neither message anyone nor talk properly. But people around me ask as to why I am like this and I put a false image of myself like just fooling around! I hate it from the bottom of my heart! I hate it thoroughly!

Things have changed! Feel as though I have lots to learn about people in life and that even those people whom I consider close to me are not the same as what they appear to be!
I know for a fact that this post is becoming a very depressing one but still I can’t really help it!

Umarao jaan!
A flop show!

To sum up this whole film, its nothing but a disaster!
Sheer waste of energy time and money.. you might be asking me as to why I went for this movie then?
The answer is because my brother bought the tickets for this movie inspite of telling him not to buy tickets for this movie. The movie for which I wanted to go was DON. But he messed it up just because he had seen the movie already with his friends two days backL.

Now coming back to the movie, its nothing but the newer version of the old movie. The director has given it more colourful. The resources invested in this movie is all sheer waste. Aishwarya rai, has wrinkles on her face and she looks old!
Consolation to the movie are abhishek and sunil shetty(both don’t have much role to play though).
Shabana Azmi as usual comes out with a neat and a flawless performance.
It needs a lot of patience to sit through the whole movie. Each and every scene is very long. And the story also does not have a proper ending. Its too abrupt, but by that time the audience is too relived about the fact that the movie is actually over that they are not much bothered about the ending.

I have seen historical movies, but I don see any point in this movie being retaken for any reason without nay change from the original version that too when the whole trend is about giving fast paced racy movies. Umrao jaan fails to satisfy any of the demands of the present day film goers!

To break the jinx of the blog of mine.. Here I go posting something about diwali!
This is one festival I have always looked up to.. This is because of some reasons.

Nice movies are put on TV on diwali day!
Lots of sweets to eat and put on 10kgs extra!!
Get to meet relatives which is not possible on the normal days!!!
And of course we get to burst crackers (though this crackers craze is not anymore in existence)

Ten years down the memory lane, if I sit back and think as to how Diwali was celebrated by all of us, it was all different. There were around seven of the kids at home all excited about the new dress which we had bought and the crackers. The day before diwali, we wear a new dress, burst a little bit of crackers. Then rest of the day was spent in keeping things ready for the next day. The next day morning, get up around three and have oil bath, wear new dress and burst crackers and go to the temple. The whole day used to be fun filled spending time with the whole family. It used to be fun!

Now, things have changed, I mean the craze for crackers have gone but the usual fun is always there. Nowadays there is no “whole family meeting”(cause things have changed) but still enjoyment is always there in my small family of four!

This festival has its own story. Actually there are two stories attached to it.

One is diwali is the day on which goddess Devi killed Narakasura..

The other one is this is the day on which Rama returns back to Ayodhya after killing Ravana.

Happy diwali to one and all!

This post is all about an incident which just happened now.. just now..


Well.. it all started with that bomb blasts in mumbai.. from 7 o clock there have been so many people, all relatives and friends calling home to find out whether my brother was safe because he was previously posted over there. But now he is now in banglore along with my father. Infact only after they told us about the bomb blast did we even know that there were bomb blasts in mumbai. Then after that we were watching the various news channels to know actually what had happened. My mom and I had our dinner around 8.30 and were watching the usual horrible soaps. By the time all those got over it was 9.30..

Then its only at this time that it strikes my mom that my brother had not called her today! she as usual gets all panicked and calls my father and asks him whether he is back. And dad tells that he is not back and that since he still continues to have a bombay line, and since all the lines are jammed because of the bomb blast, this number was not reachable. My father was even more tensed and he goes to the extent of calling up his company to get his colleagues numbers. Both my mom and dad were trying sincerely(infact i was also trying coz it was a bit tensed about the whole thing).

Then comes the turning point when i ask my mom to call up one of my brothers friend who is in chennai. First my mom is all hesitant to call him and disturb but i give her all courage and support and make her call him. His friend had told my mom that he will find out and let her know in few minutes. In the mean time, i keep trying his number and so is father trying out all bombay, uttar pradesh(numbers) and what not! phew!

Then within some ten minutes or so, we get a call from banglore, it was my father and he had called us to tell that my brother was back( it seems like it got late in the office). My mom was relieved, so was my father, infact he was very very very much relieved. But my brother was in a VEEEEERRRRYYY BBBBAAADDD MMOOOODD!. this is a usual behaviour of guys, they don like their parents especially their siblings to call up their friends and ask them whether they know anything. Same was the case with my brother. He was shouting at my mother and father. In order to be alive i didnt talk to my brother only.

At this time, i had only one thought, i was just praying that my brothers friend should not have called him and told that we had called him to ask about sudheer! My mom immediately calls up sudheer s friend, but unluckily he had told sudheer everything and when my mom called him, he is just laughiong his heart out. My mother gets all embarrassed and keeps the phone.
today was for sure an eventful day! atleast something out of the usual happened which made it likeable!
it was funny.. all was only because of that bomb blast in bombay!


p.s.- my deep condolenses to the victims of the bomb blast

Forwards.. the most irritating stuff!!!

Well, the fact is that before and all I was also getting carried away by all these forwards and used to sit and religiously send the forwards to each and every person in my phone book.. I cant even believe that I was that jobless!

But thank goodness atleast now I have understood as to how dumb it is to forward them. It’s better to always to type it out in simple words whatever you want to say and send it instead of forwarding some shayiris and all. I have always wondered as to why people take so much of pains of forwarding them when sometimes they might not even mean that.

The worst forwards are those good morning and good night messages with all those teddy bears and roses which tell that “ I brought these flowers or teddy bear only for telling u a good morning/night”. CRAP! Utter crap. If anyone wanted to wish good morning or good night they can either send it as a personalized message or even sometimes if they are that desperate, they can even spend on a call. But they end up adopting the worst means of communication!. Well again at this point of time, I really want to tell that I was also a victim of these stuffs. I used to really bug three of my friends(chikki, arthi and swathi) with innumerous forwards in a day! I really feel sorry for them. Rest of them I don even message them.

Next are these fun type messages.. i.e. tell me one thing which u like the most in me or something like that. Though they are kind of bugging in true sense but they are fun. Atleast better than those good morning good afternoon messages!

But again there are these real nice forwards. Few forwards are really cool.. especially the jokes..

At last, one thing is for sure.. there are totally four people glad on this earth because I stopped forwarding these forwards. They are arthi, swathi, chikki, and myself.

I am happy for myself!!!:)

The black mark season..

In my school, there is a custom that whomsoever behaved badly or fought with anyone( I mean physical fights like hitting, biting etc) or whomsoever were talking in class or irregular submission of homework were given a BLACKMARK. There were thirty boxes in total, and after a student gets ten or twenty or thirty black mark he or she will be asked to go and stand infront of the principal room for the rest of the day. If that person was lucky enough he or she will get it in the beginning of the day so that they need not attend the rest of the classes.

Well, when I heard of this word, I thought that they will just keep some record of these and will just keep a black point against the name and that’s it! But as usual I was wrong. It had many more things to offer. This was basically like a chart stuck in the class and each one of our names were written on the chart and each one of us could see the number of black marks which others got! Initially when this was started, it was more of a terrorizing factor for all of us. I was very scared and I behaved like “good girl”(sounds ironical right? Well that was me). The first year after this came into existence I got NO blackmark and believe me I was very very happy. That year during the hols I went around people and my flat friends telling that I got NO black mark.

Then the next year came, by that time I had got bored of staying like a good girl(dog’s tail cant be straightened u see) so again I started of with all these talking stuff and irregular submissions etc etc.. after a point of time, everyone in my class especially the guys had this competition kind of thing in which they competed against each other as to who will get the maximum number of black marks in a year. Infact for few of them, they were really bratty that the thirty boxes which actually given were not enough. They needed MORE!! And best thing was after this came up, everyone of us were very much aware of the consequences of anything which we do. Maximum punishment will only be two or three black marks at a stretch.

And I was lucky enough to get 13 blackmarks(most of them for talking in class or not doing homework). I was infact feeling thrilled on the day when I got my tenth black mark because for the first time I was allowed to bunk classes like this with the teachers permission! But to my utter disappoint it was the last period and so it was no point for me to bunk the last hour because the last period was anyways P.T. or something!!

Bad luck u see!!!!

Morning walks… and the park…

One thing for which I have always had aversion is nothing but waking up early and going for walking. It has always been near to impossibility for me to get up in the morning for morning walk! But ironically, I have started doing the same for the past four or five days. I am really amused by this fact!

I really have to tell about the place where I go for walk.. it is actually a park very near to my place, the name is nageshwara park. Earlier this park was known for its untidy dirty environment. The park had garbage thrown all over the place. There were iron rods here there which were broken and were very badly rusted. And most importantly it was known for the urinated smell, which it always gave because mostly people went inside that park for that purpose only. So undoubtedly, it was full of mosquitoes 24*7. the nearing neighborhoods were suffering a lot.

The turning point came when the ‘sundaram finance’ took up this the park and decided to renovate it. Now its undoubtedly its one of those very few parks which are very well maintained and its full of greenery. Morning walks have become a very common feature over there. Thus in the process reduced the crowd in the beach to a very great extent. The people from in and around this area prefer coming to the park and once you become the regular walker in the park, you will come to know many people. This park has many more to offer. There is something called the Laughter club in which people stand in a circle and laugh in all different ways possible. This has been scientifically prove very healthy as it is known that ‘laughter is the best medicine’. And again there are free yoga sessions provided.

There are no interesting characters as such in the mornings who come to the park for walk, but the fun or the gala time is only in the evening when the tiny tots come there to play. There are just too adorable. But one thing is for sure. None of the kids are regular to the park so its kind off difficult to catch up with their names.

Once when I had gone to the park in the evening around four out of sheer boredom of sitting all day alone at home, I saw two kids who were actually sisters playing in the park. If I am not wrong, I think the elder sister was around 5 years old and younger around 3 yrs. I was looking at the way in which these two were playing and the younger one comes to me and pulls me and asks her to come and play with her(in her language which I didn’t understand but I had her sister help me out in decoding “THE CODE”. After sometime of play the kids leave home and for the first time in my life I even experienced something very new. It has never occurred to me.. I was sitting under a big tree and slowly I began to loose myself and started admiring the nature’s beauty. There was noone next to me and the place was in absolute silence. I was able to listen to the minute of the chirping which the birds did and was able to fell the cool breeze of the wind. It was slow and cool and I felt as though there was also a melodious tune of flute accompanying the wind. Considering the fact that I am a very very very restless person and I had always not believed to all those nature poets whose poems we were asked to read in school. But that was one day which made me sit over there for about three hours continuously. I was able to feel my world, my freedom, my nature everything of mine.

Long time since I posted anything.. Well, all I can think about writing now is about my trip to Delhi, Amritsar, Haridwar.

Delhi- It was a place where I had stayed for about an year and I was very comfortable with this place(except for the summer season, winter was total fun). Had gained a lot of friends during that time and ofcourse had my cousins staying over there. So practically I knew quite a lot of things about Delhi. I knew quite a lot of markets in Delhi for shopping and for hanging out. So the stay over there was fun. Ofcourse to add on to the fun we went for fana in a PVR called WAVES (if I am not wrong). After which I have fallen in love with Aamir khan.. Wow.. Great movie!!! Not to forget that little kid.. one scene where the kid tells ways if wasting milk and how his mom will find it is just an example.

Haridwar- wow.. Comparatively a cool place.. The stay was only for a day or two but the food and the climate(atleast it was kind of pleasant when compared to the others) over there was really good. The stay was very comfortable except for our driver who was very very very irritating. He was talking all the time totally boring us. Its not like I hate to listen to people talking, but its just that he was unimaginably boring.
Having bath in the ganges is the best thing anyone can even think off!!! But one word of caution to all those people who are planning to take bath in the Ganges like what I did. Please be careful.. see to that that when u are having a bath in the Ganges, rubber tyres and plastic covers don’t cling onto your neck. It happened to me. It was very funny but at the same time it made me think about many things (well now I am not all that ‘thinking about many things’ but still....


Amritsar- place of turbans!!!(no offences). But I did get tired of looking at turbans all the time in the city!!! Pa.. where ever I turned was looking at long beard and turbans!!! Well one thing.. the golden temple was awesome. Though I was not all that convinced about their beliefs and practices. It was very hot there too!!!!!! Very hot…
This was my ten days ‘summer’ trip to ‘hot places’. Huh… its all overL back to square one! Same usual routine .. waaaahhhh!!!!

Ten more days left for the THE DAY to come but here I am sitting in front of the comp at 1.30 in the morning to write a blog… wow.. that seems exciting na… hmmm.. well actually I had taken a oath that I will not blog till my exams get over… but today is a very special day… its CHIKKI’S BIRTHDAY.. I gotta make it special na… so here I go to break my oath…

First of all, MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY DI..

Guess she is one of those really beautiful girls I have met till now in my life..

I cant forget those days when we both have OB adichufied giving company for each other in the MK class… every moment is so memorable…

She is one person who gets to know almost everything about me first… it just happens.. nothing purposeful…infact she was the first person whom I came to know in this gang!!!

Most importantly she is my neighbour!!!! I dunno why but I get excited if my friends are my neighbour
Cranky… oooo… guess chikki, thi and me make a good company for the all the ‘blabberings’ we do… wow… great…

This girl seems to be having solution for everything on earth.. if u have some problem all u got to do is just call her and talk to her and she will surely come up with really good solution… or if something is just bothering u, all she does is just give a hug and u feel much better!!!! Wow.. how is it possible di????? So much of magic???? Makes me wonder…

Well… tell me the date when you coming back from Bombay… have a surprise for you ;-)
Hmmm.. now coming to the song…. Well.. there are two songs… first one is… kanmani anboda kadhalan…
And second one is a funny song… u like it too I think.. en jodi manjakuruvi… from vikram;-)
Wish u all the best for ur exams… crack the exams with superb marks!!!

Four things

Four jobs I've had:
1. watch tv
2. eat
3. sleep
4. nothing else productive… ya I guess chatting

Four movies I could watch over & over:
1. kannathil mutthamittal
2. dil chahta hai
3. azagiye theeye
4. kanda naal mudaal, alaipayuthey

Four places I’ve lived:
1. Chennai
2. delhi
3. trichy
4. chennai(poga vera edam illa.. he he he)

Four places you've been on vacation:
1. gantok, darjeeling
2. shimla
3. banglore
4. bombay… many more to list.. and ya also shirdi

Four websites I visit daily
1. My two email accounts
2. My blog
3. my yahoogroups account
4. The other blogs on my blogroll

Four things I say quite often:
1. free ya vudu
2. aiyyo
3. po da goiya/ po di goiya… depends on the gender
4. hello.. in my weird style..

Four Random Facts about me
1. I am an indian
2. i love trying out new stuffs when i am free or when i am alone at home like searching for some interesting stuff at my house.. like what i am doing now... i was checking out whether anything was there in the loft... shhhhh! don tell my mom... he he he..
3. I love analysing myself ie the way i behaved in the past... my mistakes.. really like to correct myself...
4. I am very independent

Four things I love most
1. friends(now don’t ask me the names… there is a whole lot of friends.. if I tell one and leave out the others the other will get angry so.. just chuck it..)
2. family
3. my computer
4. my cell

Four things that irritate me most
1. cockroaches…
2. people with attitude
3. people who are selfish
4. who are over possessive

World of numerology… ufff… I never knew its so big… hmph

How does numerology work?

The sum of the birthdate determines your Life Path. This number represents who you are at birth, and the natural characteristics of your personality that will stay with you throughout your life. The Life Path number is derived from your date of birth. First, add the digits of the birth day together, then add the digits of the month together, then add that number to the sum of the birth day. Next, add the digits of the year togther, reducing it down to one digit, and add that to the sum of the month and day, then reduce that number to a single digit 1 through 9, or to the numerology master numbers, 11 or 22. These master numbers are not reduced any further. For example, if your birthday is December 12, 1986, add the 1 and the 2 of the day together = 3, add the 1 and 2 of the month together = 3, then add the digits of the year together 1+9+8+6 = 24, then add the 2 and the 4 together = 6. Finally add the 3+3+6 = 12, then 1 + 2, so the life path number would be 3. The Destiny Number is derived from all of the letters in your Full Name, as written on your birth certificate. This number defines your life's purpose. To find your Destiny number, add the letter values of each name separately. Reduce each number to a single digit or master number. Then add the results of all of the names to arrive at a total, which you then reduce to a single digit or master number.

1 (10/1)
The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation.
Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions.
You are ambitious and assertive in promoting yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you can be self-centered and demand to have your way in many circumstances.
2 (11/2, 20/2)
The Life Path 2 suggests that you entered this plane with a spiritual quality in your makeup allowing you to be one of the peacemakers in society. Your strengths come from an ability to listen and absorb. You are a fixer, a mediator, and a very diplomatic type of person using persuasive skills rather than forcefulness to make your way in the world. When you embrace and exhibit the strength of your spiritual side, you are intuitive, avant-garde, idealistic, and visionary. These extremes make you interesting with much to offer society. You have the potential to be a deep-thinker, and no doubt interested in understanding many of life's mysteries and more intriguing facets.
In many ways, you are a creature of habit and routine, and you like your path and pattern well worn and familiar. Your ability to analyze and render accurate judgments is a wonderful natural trait you bring to the business world. You strive for complete accuracy and even perfection in your work.
Even the more positive individuals with the 2 Life Path will prefer a more amiable and less competitive environment, often shunning the business world. You can best serve society in endeavors utilizing your skills of counseling and guidance. Much of your idealism is people oriented and quite humanitarian in nature. You expect a great deal of yourself.
3 (3, 12/3, 21,/3, 30/3)
The Life Path 3 indicates that you entered this plane with a strong sense of creativity and with wonderful communication skills. Achievement for you most likely comes through engaging your ingenious expression. A truly gifted 3 possesses the most exceptional innovative skills, normally in the verbal realm, writing, speaking, acting, or similar endeavors. Here we are apt to find the entertainers of the world, bright, effervescent, sparkling people with very optimistic attitudes. The bright side of this path stresses harmony, beauty and pleasures; of sharing your inventive talents with the world. Capturing your capability in creative self-expression is the highest level of attainment for this life path.
Life is generally lived to the fullest, often without much worry about tomorrow. You are not very good at handling money because of a general lack of concern about it. You spend it when you have it and don't when you don't.
The 3 loves connecting with people. The characteristics of the 3 are warmth and friendliness, a good conversationalist, social and open. A good talker both from the standpoint of being a delight to listen to, but even more importantly, one who has the ability to listen to others. Accordingly, the life path 3 produces individuals who are always a welcome addition to any social situation and know how to make others feel at home. The approach to life tends to be exceedingly positive. Your disposition is almost surely sunny and openhearted. A happy and often inspired person, you are constantly seeking and needing the stimuli of similar people.
In romance, the 3 is a very ardent and loyal lover. Affairs that don't go well can leave scares that seem to linger. Emotional experiences of all sorts tend to deeply touch the 3 and the drama may take some time to play out. Slow thinking and overly contemplative people tend to frustrate you, and you don't function too well with this type whether you are working for, with, or under them. Your exuberant nature can take you far, especially if you are ever able to focus your energies and talents.
4 (4, 13/4, 22/4, 31/4, 40/4)
The Life Path 4 suggests that you entered this plane with a natural genius for planning, fixing, building, and somehow, with practical application and cerebral excellence, making things work. You are one of the most trustworthy, practical, and down-to-earth of individuals; the cornerstone members of society. Indeed, as a Life Path 4, you are a builder of society. The cream of the crop in this Life Path can be a master builder in society.
You have the kind of will power that is often mistaken for sheer stubbornness. You don't think of yourself as dogged, but your honest beliefs and that ever direct speech makes you come across as completely unremitting. Your tenacity of purpose and ability to get the job done borders on obsession. You are a wonderful manager with a great sense of how to get the job done.
You are an excellent organizer and planner because of your innate ability to view things in a very common sense and practical way. Loyal and devoted, you make the best of your marriage, and you are always the good provider. Friends may be few in number, but you are very close to them and once friendships are made, they often last a lifetime.
The number 4 is solidly associated with the element of earth from which it gains its strength and utter sense of reality. You are one of the most dependable people you know. If patience and determination can ever win, you are sure to achieve great success in life. Often, you are called on to take care of others; to finish what they have started. It may not seem fair and probably isn't, but it may be the key to your accomplishment and reputation.
5 (5, 14/5, 23/5, 32/5)
The Life Path 5 suggests that you entered this plane with a highly progressive mindset, with the attitude and skills to make the world a better place. The key word for your Life Path is freedom. In the pursuit of freedom, you are naturally versatile, adventurous, and advanced in your thinking. You are one of those people who is always striving to find answers to the many questions that life poses. The byword for the positive Life Path 5 is constant change and improvement. You want to be totally unrestrained, as this is the number most often associated with the productive use of freedom.
You may be one of the most compassionate of people as the 5 is surely the most freedom-loving and compassionate Life Path. Your love of freedom extends to humanity at large, and concern for your fellow man, his freedom and his welfare, may be foremost in your mind.
You are a good communicator, and you know how to motivate people around you. This may be your strongest and most valuable trait. Because of this skill, and your amazing wit, you are a truly natural born salesman. This ability to sell and motivate extends to any sort of physical product all the way through to whatever ideas or concepts you may embrace.
A love of adventure may dominate your life. This may take the form of mental or physical manifestation, but in either case, you thrill to the chance for exploration and blazing new trails.
In romance, you hate to be tied down and restricted. This doesn't necessarily mean that you are unfaithful or promiscuous, but it does mean that a good partner for you needs to understand your nature. A partner who understands your need to be free and trusted will find you trustworthy, even if you aren't constantly available and totally dutiful.
6 (6, 15/6, 24/6, 33/6)
The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character.
You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family and the friends.
This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. If you are like the majority with In romance, the 6 is loyal and devoted. A a caretaker type, you are apt to attract partners who are somewhat weaker and more needy than yourself; someone you can care for and protect. You don't function well in stressful relationships that become challenges for you to control. It is the same with friends, you are loyal and trustworthy. But there is a tendency for you to become dominating and controlling.
It's likely you feel compelled to function with strength and compassion. You are a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of your life, and these define your approach to life in general. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age.
7 (7, 16/7, 25/7, 34/7)
The Life Path 7 suggests that you entered this plane with a gift for investigation, analysis, and keen observation. You are a thinker of the first order. You evaluate situations very quickly, and with amazing accuracy. As a result, you are thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to meet a high standard of performance, too.
A Life Path 7 person is a peaceful and affectionate soul. You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life. It's as if you must get to know someone a lot better before you allow the wall surrounding you to be penetrated. Chances are you are a very charming and refined individual with great poise and a quick wit. Nonetheless, there is an exclusiveness about you. You probably aren't a very social person. Your reserve is often taken to be aloofness, but actually, it's not that at all. It is merely a cover up for your basic feeling of insecurity. The overwhelming strength of the number 7 is reflected in the depth of thinking that is shown; you will garner knowledge from practically every source that you find. Intellectual, scientific, and studious, you don't accept a premise until you have dissected the subject and arrived at your own independent conclusion.
This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age.
8 (8, 17/8, 26/8, 35/8)
The Life Path 8 suggests that you entered this plane armed to lead, direct, organize and govern. You are very ambitious and goal-oriented. You will want to use your ambitions, your organizational ability, and your efficient approach to carve a satisfying niche for yourself. If you are a positive 8 you are endowed with tremendous potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas, and also possessing the tenacity and independence to follow them through to completion.
You know how to manage yourself and your environment. Your ability to judge the character and potential of the people around you is an asset used to your advantage. You are practical and steady in your pursuit of major objectives, and you have the courage of your convictions when it comes to taking the necessary chances to get ahead.
In relationships, you are frank, honest, and steadfast. You may be very much in love, but watch that you are not too busy and preoccupied to show it. Being the lavish provider is not always an adequate substitute for showing your devotion and affection in more personal ways. You have a great need for close personal relationships to mitigate and somehow soften your nature. You must find the time for love and keep it as an important project in your life.
9 (9, 18/9, 27/9, 36/9)
The Life Path 9 suggests that you entered this plane with an abundance of dramatic feelings coupled with a strong sense of compassion and generosity. The key to the nature of a Life Path number 9 person is found in their humanitarian attitude. The 9 Life Path indicates you have a commanding presence. You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality. You meet people easily and are quickly befriended because of your openness and amiable demeanor. You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling. The number 9's very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields. If drama and acting is not your forte, it will surely be an area of great interest and potential. Likewise, you may be able to express your deep emotional feelings through painting, writing, music, or other art forms.As do all the life path numbers, the 9 has its negative side. Because of the demanding nature of the truly positive 9, many tend to fail in this category. It is not uncommon for persons with the 9 life path to fight the realities and challenges of purpose imposed here because selflessness is not an easy trait. You may have difficulty believing that giving and a lack of personal ambition can be satisfying. It must be realized and accepted that little long-term satisfaction and happiness is to be gained by rejecting the natural humanitarian inclinations of this path.

Another birthday to pass by…

Today… an auspicious day… birthday of my friend…

To start of giving intro about the person… hmmm… I will just put it as one of those very few persons who understands me top to bottom!!!

Hey how can I forget the thing about which we both keep talking.. both of us are quite amused by the fact that we both share exactly same views in most of the things. The point is I am still not able to believe that we share the same views. Infact its still a surprise for me… really.. because I have always thought that my views are weird and that noone will have opinions like that of mine.. well let me stop talking about me..

Now I guess I cannot give a better intro to this person.. its none other than neethu.. damn friendly person and she is one person who just makes anyone totally comfortable (atleast me).

I think I have known her for about two years though we got into good touch only towards the end of the first year… one year has passed ….


I really cant forget time when I have spent with her.. it has always been a heart to heart talk with her more than “talking for fun”( this also we have had).

To be very true she has inspired me a lot many times… well I know what her expression will be giving when she reads it.. but still it’s the truth… I admire your sincerity towards certain things..

I cannot really forget those days when neethu, pavi and me used to try doing joint study before the college internals so that we can crap atleast a bit…. Wat say neethu and pavi?

And most importantly, how neethu and pavi were of support to me when I really was into great problem… hats off to them... my heart felt gratitude...I guess there are noone to replace my friends!

Well.. actually I don have much to put on the paper because its more of a feeling and I think I really cant put it on a sheet of paper and get away with it..


Every bit of time spent with her has been truly enjoyable and I really feel that our friendship gotta continue even after our college life… both of us don’t know what we are going to do next year.. jus hoping that both of us continue to stay in touch and I would really love it if we both get into the same articleship firm… which is highly unlikely…
But still I am hoping….

And I dedicate this song to you…
Dil chahta hai .. has everything whatever I want to tell you

As I am running short of thoughts I am again going back to my school days when I was a major mischievous types.. people around me still continue telling that I am a brat but if one sits and does a comparative analysis of me during my school days and now, the result will surely disclose that I have become more ‘shamathu’ types girl.. very sincerely speaking I hate this new avatar of mine… but what to do? I am truly helpless.

An incident occurred when I was in my tenth standard, as I had mentioned earlier, six of us, were the ones who were involved in the whole thing. This happened towards the end of tenth standard, by that time we had become experts in any kind off mischievous things.. I mean anything!!!

I still remember, it was on January 29th a day before our board science practical, two of my friends had not submitted their records. Infact till January 29th their notes itself was incomplete. Actually we had to submit our records two weeks before the exam and get it corrected and the school’s seal was a must. But since two of my friends had not done anything regarding this, we had to help them out handle the situation because if they don’t get things done on time, they will surely get into trouble the next day. So, three of us started writing and drawing stuffs in their records so that work gets over fast and the others were very religiously working out on getting the teacher’s signature right. After about an hour’s work two of them got the signatures right and they signed their own record notebooks on behalf of the teachers.

After the autograph session got over, the next was to get the school’s seal on it. Only two people could do this, it was I and another girl. But since her record notebook was involved she didn’t want to do this. So I decided that I would do it. At around 3.15 when actually the physics lab will be practically empty with only one teacher over there who is one of my favorite teachers, I tiptoed into the lab and I started talking to him in a usual way as I normally do. But to my surprise he understood that I had come for some work to be done. Then he asked me what he wants to do for me? But I was a bit hesitant because he is one person who is damn shrewd and he knows top to bottom about me and he also has an amazing memory power

I kept telling that I had come to see him only. But he saw the record notebooks in my hand and asked me whose books these were. I told that it was my friends record and that I had come to submit that. But still he didn’t believe. And neither was I able to keep up the silence. So I told him that I wanted a favor from him..

I told him that I want him to put the school seal on the two record notebooks. He just checked the record notebooks to see whether they were signed. He didn’t tell me anything about the signatures. I felt so relieved and I also had a sense of achievement that I had fooled one extremely sharp person. After that he just wished me all the best for my practical exam. After that I left home.

The next day, was my exam, I was majorly tensed and I saw my physics teacher mocking at me (he always used to play with me a lot). I was actually feeling bad that I had cheated my physics teacher. Then I decided that I am surely going to go and tell him that I did the mistake. Because his silence was practically killing my conscious. So I went up to him and told him that I wanted to confess something to him. He acted as though he knew nothing though I knew that he knew everything. I just told him ‘sorry’ and he told that its ok.. I was just totally taken a back looking at his generosity. Actually when I decided that I will go and tell him the truth I thought that he is surely going to make it a big issue and that my future is for sure shattered. But nothing like that happened.

All he told me were these words “good that u realized it before it was too late and asked sorry.. the minute you realized that what you did was wrong, at that time itself I forgave you” I was really touched… I guess this is how a teacher-student rapport should be..
I don’t think I will be getting another teacher like him who truly gave me my space but still corrected me.

Pitiable condition…


Ever since my early teenage days, I have wondered many a times as to why heroines are treated merely as sex dolls and why they are not given strong roles like how the yester year heroines like savithri used to get. I have always wanted to see a movie that had heroine playing a strong, dignified role. That was because in most of the movies the women are projected as though they are the weaker sex and that they cannot do anything without the help of the hero. At the same time the hero will be able to beat twenty goondas at a time and yet emerge out of the whole without even getting a scratch on his body… according to me this is heights of rubbish and crap anyone can ever think of showing people!!! These have been sincerely and strictly followed in all the MGR movies. And the saddest part is that the Tamil audiences have never failed to appreciate these kind dumb formulas.. The irony is these things have been termed as ‘success formulas’ by the producers.

In the recent past I found answers to my questions.. There were few movies releasing which had the lady playing the lead role and they had received a lukewarm response from the public.

Take the case of Kovilpatti veeralakshmi… it had simran playing the lead role and the movie had extremely good story line. This story was actually inspired from a life of a lady named so. But still the movie failed to click at the box office. Why are these things happening? What kind of a movie the audience expects? Is it jus the same old mother-son sentiment? Or lovers running away from the house? Or brother-sister relationship? Or is it just the same old stuff of the so-called success formula and six songs where the hero and heroines have about three duet songs?

I think the audience at large prefers the masala movies.

Leave alone kollywood, the same is the condition with bollywood.. Movies which are good don get any recognition whereas movies with no stuff still manages to win the race. The tastes and preferences of the people are pitiable. With more and more westernization coming into the India, Indian culture is suffering very badly. Considering the number of kissing scenes in the movie, each and every movie competing with each other to increase the number of kissing scenes so that the movie is well received and that it becomes a box office hit.

At the end of the day, the producers just want their movies to click at the box office. That’s it! They are not bothered about the public welfare. These kind of movies misguide the teenagers, both the girls and the boys who will be attracted to get into all unscrupulous acts. First of all, why should the audience force the producers to produce such movies? Its high time the audience starts appreciating nice subjects which projects human beings as human beings and not as dolls!

Relatives and cousins and friends

I have always had this iota of doubt as to why there are innumerous relations like sister’s brother’s cousin’s son and each one of them having a name for themselves because I don’t think anyone of us take any steps in remembering those complex relations. Anyways I have miserably failed in remembering those relationships (considering my wonderful memory power). All I do when I see my distant relatives is just give a smile of recognition and when they ask me whether I remember them I will immediately without even giving a thought will say “ungala ennakku theriyadha?”. Some people stop with that but some continue to make me feel more miserable by remembering my childhood days and asking me whether I remember. But I have a ready made answer for that too.. I will just tell that I was too young then and so I don’t remember anything.

Almost all will be facing these kinds of embarrassments but for me it’s more like self-inviting problems. After my dance programmes I will be receiving gifts and boquets from those persons whom I have not even met till now. Those days will be the most embarrassing days of my life. I really feel miserable for my indifferent attitude towards the concept RELATIONSHIPS.

As far as it comes to my interpretation with regards to this topic, I would any day prefer friends when compared to cousins and cousins brother’s sister’s son and blah blah.. This is mainly for the following reasons.

1. Easy to remember ( I mean the word ‘friend’)
2. You can be yourself.. that is you need not be formal and need not put a false image before anyone.
3. They are there for you at any time and very easily approachable.
4. They are the only people who can make you comfortable after your parents and your own siblings.
5. Since they are of the same age they can empathize better than anyone can do.


Often I have had arguments with my mother, where she says that I am acting too selfish i.e. I am just bothered about my work and my friends and that I don’t care for my relatives. She will compare her generation with that of mine. She says that when she was a teenager she was much more attached to her cousins and siblings when compared to her friends.

But my opinion is that the whole concept of cousins has disappeared. These days most of them feel that spending time with friends are much more fun when compared to spending time with cousins. At least in my case its absolutely true. I am much more comfortable with my friends (so are my cousins). One simple reason is because they understand my feelings and give respect to my emotions.

In most of the relations or cousins, its not the emotions or understanding that plays the role, it’s the so-called relation that we have been hearing from the time we were born. So all these cousins relations are also now turning out to be more like hi-bye relations.

Well, this is actually my own opinion.. I might be wrong too. There are exceptions to every thing..

CA classes…


The very thought of CA gives people all types of tensions… but this course has many more to offer… for eg: CA classes.. lets just look at the positives and negatives of going to classes.

Positives:

Get many new friends
Get an idea of what to do in life from the speeches given by the teachers.
Classes are fun
Can try out many interesting stuffs like chatting through the paper when the classes are going on (have tried it out in PE-1… believe me it truly exciting)
Can even chat through SMS when the classes are going on.. Thanks to AIRCEL services
Ps: the above point should be done only with the people sitting inside the class and most importantly with the ones sitting NEXT to you
If u are not interested you can also go into sleep, noone will bother (except MPV.. dare not do any such thing in his classes coz in the first place his classes are too interesting, second thing u will be jacked)
Interested people can even try out their luck in getting new boyfriends, girl friends
The most entertaining part is the name keeping ceremony for few of them ( I mean … “few interesting characters”)
Place of competition
Get to know people of different backgrounds, tastes, preferences, brought up and accordingly adjust with them.



Negatives:
1. Have to get up in the early morning
2. During the long sessions, bums tend to start aching!!!


Considering the fact that the positives are five times more than the negatives, CA classes are undoubtedly fun.

Random stuff

I love:

1.Sitting alone at home
2.Surfing the net
3.Chatting and freaking out with friends
4.Watching TV


My strengths:


1. Hard work
2. Never give up attitude
3. Disciplined to some extent
4. Caring


My weakness:


1. Negative confidence
2. Moody
3. Emotional
4. Possessive about my family and friends



My favorite dishes:


1. Anything which has paneer
2. Bhel puri
3. Pani puri
4. Curd rice during summers

Favorite drink: lime juice

My favorite hangouts:


1. Sitting in the beach alone
2. Terrace
3. Going to beach with friends
4. Any other place where it is calm

My favorite songs (this countdown keeps changing but still..)


1. Kaisi hai yeh ruth ki jisne
2. Enna ithu
3. Enuyir thozhiye
4. Aao na
All time favorites: Illayaraja hits, A R Rahman hits, Shankar mahadevan songs


My inspiration


1. M P Vijay Kumar
2. My brother
3. Vikram (for the amount of confidence he had that he will crack the Tamil film industry one day and his sincerity and commitment)
4.Every other person, I come across in one or more ways

I me myself and my ‘confusions’


Ever since my childhood days I have been always the queen of confusions… in everything I do, think there has always been the word CONFUSION attached to it.


Usually, when kids are asked the question about what they what to become after they grow up.. their immediate answer will be either teacher, police, doctor, or a pilot. And nothing was special with me.. I was also in that category.. but I was just carried away with all these stuffs for pretty long time.. I guess I was telling doctor, teacher, pilot blah blah .. till was in my eighth standard.. the most interesting part is that I used to tell all new new stuffs every other day. I was not even able to keep my thoughts stable even for two consecutive days. I used to be that confused!!!


I did my dance arangetram when I was in my eighth standard, and there was a sudden change in my thoughts.. all of a sudden I wanted to become a dancer.. I wanted to achieve something big in dance.. I wanted to see my name and photo published in almost all the leading news papers with raving reviews.. but little did I know about the dance profession as such, the difficulties faced and the various other things connected to this profession.


Then in my ninth standard, I started doing extremely good in my studies mainly math, and science… so I started thinking that I am going take up science in my eleventh and do engineering. But again, the next year I came to know that science was not my interest and I wanted to try out something different. I started thinking about many weird courses and also started asking my brother’s opinion on this.


But my brother had lots and lots of hopes on me. He wanted me to take Science only! He wanted me to try for IIT or BITS (poor guy little did he know about my commitment and sincerity. He failed to understand that I am a piece of flesh with no brains!)


But my mom, was very sure that I had to take up commerce only.. And according to my mom’s wish I ended up taking commerce only, coz me being the QUEEN OF CONFUSIONS was not able to decide anything.


Then finally for about an year, I enjoyed my life a lot coz I had no decisions to take and so was really happy (coz no confusions, no tension.. nothing!!). Then again when I came to twelfth standard, again the thought of what to do next came up.


Even then I was not sure of what actually I wanted to do in my life.


My mom said that I had to do CA and she started threatening me that it’s a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY tough course and stuff. Actually its absolutely true..


Now when I just sat down to think about what I want from my life..


I just concluded that doctor or teacher was not my passion because those professions need something extra, which I don’t have..( anyways I guess its late realization.. cant do much about it)


Then next comes dance… I sincerely believe that I am not that kind of a person who can adopt in that environment and excel.. Because I AM NOT MADE THAT WAY!!


Lastly coming to CA… well to be very true.. I have fallen in love with this course.
This course calls for sincerity and commitment, which I lack. But still I like this course.


I have tried many times to find out what actually attracts me towards this course.. but I have failed miserably.


When my mom had asked me to take up CA when I was in my 12th, I just asked my mom as to was the full form of CA.. that’s it… and now practically I am in love with this course!!! Didn’t even know when I started liking this course..


I think that’s why people tell that ‘noone knows when love actually happens’ (ha ha ha)

but still there are loads of confusions in my mind still!!!!


i pray to god that i should stay like this forever ataleast regarding this...