There are zillions of things shuttling here and there in my mind right now. They are...
1) My dance practises and how my dance program will turn out to be.. Dancing after a gap of some solid 7-8 months(which includes 3 months of sitting at home) absolutely no stamina and not in shape for giving an attractive program! People say i have gained weight which is normal but not wanted! Learning new songs, practising, juggling between personal work, dance practises and work! the very thought gives me goose bumps

2) Exam results..... HIGHLY scary.. soemthing for which i worked for 3 months. I think i was sincere to myself... but really don know what god has instore for me! sigh... cant go on more about this... however my thoughts are positive! guess it will help me always!

3) How do i lose weight which i gained over 3 months of sitting at home! Million dollar question!!!!!!!!! my friend asking me diet! which i need to really think of considering to cut down on the extra flabs! painful :(

4) lazinessssss- the major disease sticking on to me which does not allow me to the "active ME" is the disease of laziness. Lazy about standing up, waking up, jogging, running, dancing and wat not! u name it and yea am lazy about it!!!! hmm.. thinking about the possible reasons, i can probably blame it on the climate for making me so lazy..... but it wont help.. i still have to push myself forcefully out of the beds at 6.30 come wat may, for my yoga classes... so here comes the season again when i will get up early and get to bed late.... past 7 months my routine was too different to really get adjusted to this new routine. I am really fighting my heart out to get adjusted to the new routine which has a lot of advantages and lot of things which i have to miss out on.

5) lots of friends to catch up with.. they will really kill me if i don spare time.... lots of things to do! next two - three months are really scary to even have a thought of how it will be!

will keep u posted about how much of problems I face during these 2-3 months... as this is the only place i can fully express my thoughts! byeeee

I recently went for this cocktail party hosted by my colleagues on occassion of their promotion. Yeah! four of them had got promoted as Managers and one had got promoted as a Senior executive. It was fun, I vivdly remember the party which we had last year.. the same promotion party at GRT temple bay. I must admit, we had ultimate fun. What added to the fun which we had last year was, it was all new to us. Those people whom we often saw staring/ glaring at us , screwing up someone else s life, those people who didn even bother to share a smile at us, those people who didn acknowledge our presence (btw at some point of time, we thought they were not normal) were all actually talking to us and most imporantly "Laughing " and sharing lighter moments even with us. We had never seen our colleagues to be fun filled at that point of time. Last time was more like an exploration of the unknown side of many people. I would say, I came to know abt the humane side of people at office.

This time, I was no more a fresher... An oldie as far as office is considered... Nevertheless, it has not made any difference to my "Gang of friends" (if at all i have any.. i mean the friends with whom i can move about with... i would say its very less..) Best part of these parties and the only part for which i look upto is dance floor... I have balls time over there!!!!! Dance for any XYZ song ... what and how u dance is not the criteria... the point is u must dance.... However bad u are u must dance.... And yea.. i too danced danced danced and danced a lot..... Along with dancing many others were involved in the process of making a party which is worthwhile to get into the history of "interesting parties" by drinking and drinking.... as the very name says... "COCKTAIL party"... hmmm....

Yea... everything got over by 11.30 p.m. and we got back home!!!!

Much needed break i must say!!!!!!! :)

Yay!!!! there i go for a hundred... Just pooled in some of the things which i had written a very long time back!!

I shall start afresh later....

Random thoughts
something which affected me in a big way..

1. Character is something wat i am when noone s looking at me...how true is that?

2.Wat is win in life?
3. Are u living your life to the fullest???

nothing!
I want to be at nothing!
I love to be at nothing!
I am best when I am at nothing!
But I hate to do nothing!

When he smiles,I am glad
When he shouts,I am even more glad
When he feels touched,I am proud of myself
When he tells something good,I walk away blessed!
For all I know thatI have made a difference to someone’s life! :)

courtesy- shilpa for talking about something which kindled my thoughts!:)))

what is love?

It is unconditional and to be shared
It is a sign of celebration
No expectation
No loss
No disappointment
No attachment
Only commitment
That’s love for u!:)

Power of independence

A state of being
reflection of mind
sign of dignity
symbol of greatness and prosperity
if u enjoy it u are a true winner
if not what are you doing out there?

ninety six going on ninety seven...
feeling too good to be here!!!(Intended to be sung in the tune of "sixteen going on seventeen...." from soun of music)

yea!!! My blog is fast approaching hundred... Cant wait for that post!!! it all gotta be fun!!!!
I wondered in the morning as to why i am so ecstatic about the fact that my posts are gonna cross hundred... but then suddenly it struck me, if it was not me who would get excited about it, who else will??? Afterall, whatever crap, shit or good posts are there, everything is mine... my brain child and my efforts.. Started this blog in January 2006 and am really happy to say that its still going good!!!!!!!!! TOUCH WOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Very soon my friend shil will also be crossing the "hundred milestone". She created her blog exactly a day after i started posting and these two years have been really great!!!!!! filled with memories... Be it posting something on my friends on their birthdays or anything about my moods or any interesting person or boring person i have met or adventure moments from my life... be it anything... I have loved it. This blog has been there when i have wanted to while away time... A Good Time Pass i must say!!!!!!!!

The other day, I was having some conversation with someone and let that person be R

R is refering to 6 th post on this web page!!!1
R:I read your all your posts, the one about one of your seniors too
Me: Oh ok.
R: YOu had torn him apart in that post
Me: Yeah ... (In a disinterested way... coz i really don care about that guy)
R: He will die if he reads that post (Nakka pudingindu sethuduvan)
Me: Let him do whatever he wants to do. I am not bothered.



Yeah!!!!! all of u reading will be thinking i am a bitch or something of that sort... Again little do i bother for all this.
BLOG is my space!!!!! and i will do whatever i feel like doing!
My freedom! :)

This post is not intended to be in any said fashion...... just some random thoughts

Changes which i would want to foresee in near future...

Become a CA over night
Get a boyfriend....... Highly unlikely i guess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get permission to always surf on the net during work hours
Become a poet and write poems on guys... ;) (Baah humbug!!!)

People around me consider me to be this filled with attitude, notorious, crazy, cranky and etc etc person which according to them is not a good thing and all... but to my knowledge, no character is good or bad, we just need to see whether it is annoying us or not... if it is not annoying, then just go ahead... be proud to have something which others do not have.... Off late everyone around me have started asking me one question very often and they just refuse to believe whatever i say!!!!!!! everyone thinks that i am committed!!!!! now, gos only knows who created this and how???? starting from my dance teacher to my friends ... whole thing sounds so funny!!! kinda really crazy!!!! and then.... BANG!!!1 reality hits!!!!! how unwanted can anyone feel???? yeah... thats what i feel!!!!

yea yeah.... i hear all you guys saying "you will get the best one very soon"
some of you people telling "wait... you are just too young.. and you will find the right one very soon" and crap
everything is crap... sheer crap...

p.s.- the author has given the above comments with only one thing in mind... she does not wish to see any of those above stated sentences (or sentences with similar meaning) in the comments section... so pl remeber that!!!! think twice before you post a comment!!!!! ;)

inspiration....

the very essence of life...All of us derive inspiration from some way or the other from some one or the other or from some thing or the other. Let it be deriving inspiration from a child the way it craves for a chocolate and goes on and on talking in its gibberish language which is decipherable only by itslef(not even any other child of the same age group)... Well you might be thinking why she is talking about kids and choloates and stuff???? to put it simple, inspiration is the main element driving any human beings life...

and so is my blog... I blog whenever anything interesting or sweet or adventuorous or scary or bad happenes to me...
And the reason why i am posting this is not because of any of the above things.. This blog is purely because one of my friends (few months ago a "colleague") has started writing a blog.

This whole system of blog has given me and the people around me a lot of things...
Large circle of sensible and "think alike" friends, my best friend found her partner etc etc...
Well to continue... I met this guy almost 10 months back... Have been through all times with him. HAd never even known before till i started working with him that he was also an intern in office. I rarely used to see him and NEVER spoke with him. All of a sudden came fro mno where and we started talking about all the things i found wierd and what he found weird in me. Initially i must admit that he was too quite but highly dangerous for the amount of ragging he used to do. I was a real prey. I used to take that and still put on a smile for all i knew that he would be a great friend(just like raghavan instinct, ... i guess it was nivedita instinct)

Time flew by, two months we worked on one client and got know each other very well.. atleast to the extent that we were able to put up with eachothers nonsense...(Guess thats what is needed in friendship... accept the other person as they are).

Have been insanely rude wit hhim, he has ben insanely rude with me too.. but do we care????

Rags me to the core and still manages to put on the innocent boy s face!!!! world might fall for that... but good luck next time da!!!!

A source of inspiration in many ways... a trusted friend and one of the sensible people whom i have come across in office. For all that i know, he s reliable for me and the most approachable person at any point of itme for any silly damn shitty thing.... There to lend a shoulder anytime..

Enough of good things... coming to the best part... vetti scene poduvan.. god only knows why!!!!!!!!!!!!

He came in when i really needed a friend at work....

Thanks a lot for many things!!!:) wish u remain the same

Bing!
Ding!
Sing!
Ring!
Wrong!
Rang!
Sang!
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and so on and so forth
I can just go on rambling and rambling..... A very long time since I posted anything on my blog.
This temporary disappearance was because of the tax audits and ... and .... stuffs like that!!!! Thats the sacrifice one has to do for doing articleship in a big four.... but never mind if you like what you are doing...

Well frankly, i don want to talk about work on my blog.

I take this oppurtunity to pray to god to do give something really inspiring so that i can write something about it on my blog!!!!!!

Really bugged!!!

Tag!

I am gonna tag shil, indu, ganesh.... and and.. well i guess thats all... too lazy to type out names.....


1) One achievement in my life?
Spilling ink on my english teacher in 10th standard and the rest is history

2) One thing i would do over and over again..
Listen to my fav songs, talk talk talk talk... blah blah blah blah

3) Best people in my life...
Irritating brother (pain in the ass)... mom (she treats me like a child!!!).... dad( Keeps telling me to try acting like a girl!!!) :(.. he says i act like a guy!!!! my friends... who came up with and call me "casanivi"(casi-nova)

4) Hang out.....
My second home..... bessy and thiruvanmiyur beach..... Since these two are my second home, thi's home has also been included in the list of my hang out places......

5) idea of perfect holiday....
get up really late... watch kick ass mornings on MTV ... keep lying on the bed till one in the noon... go out for lunch with friends.... talk talk talk.... hang out.... meet more people.... get back home and chat with parents,... watch tv and then sit on the comp chatting endlessly......

6) people whom i hate....
Vetti scene potta....(sorry was not able to help telling that in tamil).. dishonesty and back biting....

7) bike or car?
bike drive.. any day!!!!!

8)best birthday gift...
This year my friends took me to a old age home and they had ordered for a meal for all of them at the home in my name.... all the old patties wished me, prayed for me and blessed me... what more can i ask??? i was overwhelmed, thrilled and was really touched..... all the old people were sitting and watching "basha" and one of them was telling us her love story.....(what a revolutionary person???). most of time i think that i don have meaning in my existence. But after meeting them, i am inspired to live for more number of years....

9)Desktop or laptop?
desktop.....

10) water or juice?
water anyday!!!!!

this is a very short list....

am bored of thinking...... if any of u can think of more things, just add on.....

bye of now.......

Some random thoughts...


I love to message.... but i hardly do that these days

Long walks near the sea shore with my friends or even alone.... gives me a lot of peace

Late night chats with my friend online...

Listening to random songs

Talking about random people, random things and totally unassociated thigns to the people around me

Love dancing.... (@*$%ing reasons why i don continue it now....)

extrovert, very very short tempered..... I am diplomatic at work... but they think that am "timid"... DO they even know about me at all???? CRAP! Whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This happened some few days back.... I go for audits to a clients place every quarter... thats a listed client...(now i shall not go into the details about what a listed client is ....) ... There was this guy from the HR department who actually asked me out but i had handled that situation with a lot of dignity and denied it. However Few of my colleagues at office insisted that i should keep my senior on the job informed about what happened for FYI purposes.
I never wanted to bring this topic to him because of the following reasons
1. I had given a lot of reasons for him to be mad at me.. Yes...
2. He has very intimate relationship with the client.....

But finally there I go, after being forced by two of my colleagues, i went and spoke to my senior about this after 2 weeks... And after i saw his reaction I was truly shocked! really..... What the *&%$? What was he thinking of me? or rather what does he think of me? A call girl or what???? Felt like bashing him right away!!! And the worst part is, he is one person i have been working with most of the times ever since i stepped into EY.

It is one the few things about which i have always been happy and proud.... i.e. working with him.... but i guess i was truly wrong.... ultimately wrong... felt cheated at the end of it all...

Well i have to confess something. I very rarely expect things from people that to from people whom i hardly know. To be very frank, i never expected him to even react to it. I had informed about the happening of this incident. The following are the exact words which he actually told me!(VERBATIM)

" I am ok with it if u finish of the work, as far as i am concerned whether you go out with some person or not is not my concern. Its upto you whether u want to maintain an informal/formal relationship with the client There is nothing like professional and unprofessional....." And he sighted some example of his relationship with one of the employees over there.... Did he think that i was asking him permission to go out with that guy????? What was he thinking after all???

Frankly speaking, I have not told anyone as to how irritated i felt... I don expect him to even empathise with me.... Least he could have done is just lend an ear.... The worst thing is it scares me more when i think that he was the only person with whom i have been working will all this while and he has such an opinion about me! What if others at office also think the same way? But little do i care!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO add on more... my manager says i add more value to the softer aspects of life! Wat the hell does he mean by that? He might know it better if he was girl!

Ever since then, little do i care about what people think! sheer shitty world!

Am asking one question to myself.... Nan nallavala kettavala??? (nayagan isshtyle);) ha ha ha ha...

what ever..... Am not bothered about what people think about me!


P.s- Blog is a place where i can talk freely... without any restrictions... with a lot of authority and freedom... So i can crib, curse and rave about anything in this world!!!!!!

Disclaimer: An attempt to write a poem after a very long time....

don know how it has come out........

Its over an year now, a new kind of life

With different people with different backgrounds

So-called a “work place”

Vivid remembrance of the first few days of people sharing

Their experiences, joyous moments and adventures

At their “second home”, long hours of work

Loads of team work, loads of fun

Sharing lighter moments at high pressure times

Surely, its not a joke!

This year was filled with events,

Loads of new friends

Loads of well wishers

Lots of acquaintances

Challenging, life is MADE hard

With only one intention

To make you stronger!

Many lessons of life have been learnt

More to go, and shall be a diligent student

To all that life has to teach me!

Can’t stop from talking about this

Inspiring, dare devil, enthusiasm

Diligence, patience, efficient

Admirable, rockstar, heroes…..

Are my colleagues!

I have been there observing them all quietly all these days!

Whatever I am, Whatever I may be, Whatever I will be, it makes me feel proud to be associated with such group of people!

Few things are easier to write rather than to tell. Few of them are easier to be felt. Its very difficult to describe in words. They are just INDESCRIBABLE!

Most of the times I have just kept my mouth shut at my workplace, I wonder why?! This is something I have not told anyone except for very few of my friends. Wonder why! Wonder why! Am wondering!:) Lets all keep wondering why!

Dear ______,

You have been the reasons for me to have been alive most of the times... YOu have helped me to cool when i was tensed, when i was depressed, when i was irritated... you have given me best of all thoughts to cherish..... you have been the reason for me to be what i am today.... my day completes only with a talk with you where we share all our thoughts and you make me feel so good. But the time has come when i wont be able to spend more time with you because of increasing commitments and change in priorities........ i know you are always there for me..... i will get back very soon... this is just a temporary phase... and am sure everything will get back to normalcy very soon.... i will miss you a lot till then....... i love you a lot!!!!!!! i really love you....




really love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muah!!!!!!!!!!








good bye sleep!!!!!!!! :(

rules of the game.......:
1. each player starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
2. people who are tagged, write a blog post about their own 8 random things, and post these rules.
3. at the end of your post you need to tag 8 people and include their names. don’t forget to leave them a comment and tell them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
4. if you fail to do this within eight hours, you will not reach third series or attain your most precious goals for at least two more lifetimes.


About myself!!!

1. I am highly short tempered.... sometimes its better to stay away from me when i am not in good moods... I hate it when people don give me my space in relationships... Normally i will end up giving my piece of mind to them which will invariably be the last time they talk to me...

2. One good thing is off late i have stopped expecting things from people around me... Let them be however weird they wish to be. but i will be the way i am!!!

3. I am highly cranky once i warm up to you...

4. Love listening to any kind of music... more often people around me think that i am committed... but I am SINGLE!!!!!!!!!

5. I dream a lot............... About many many things................. its truly amazing to do that!!!!

6. I don write well.. i know that... but i don know why i have this blog still on!!!!

7. As ganesh said, i swear a lot these days for no good reason

8. my new found passion is caricatures..... learning to draw caricatures...............

there goes the eight random facts about myself..............!!!!!!!

I am a post graduate now!!!!!! Wondering how??? I have my B.Com degree with me right now... Plus i flew a pattam(kite) in the beach the other day.... so that gives me the edge of being a post graduate....

Two times* graduation = post graduation...

Two times * pattam(Kite or degree)= post graduation..... ;P

ok... I have lost it.... see ya later!!!

The minute i touch the key board to type out a post these days, these are the few things which i automatically do...!!!
ctrl+c
ctrl+v
Alt+e+s+v
Now this i would call it as the over dosage of excel.....

I have seldom thought of why I end up cribbing so much on my blogs... In person i don crib this much!

I hate Adulthood.... Its a whole piece of shit!

I hate illiteracy and small children working

I hate people who are not genuine and they just pretend to be something when they are actually not one!!!!!!

I love music of any kind....

I love to dance... Rather enjoy dancing

Now this is some random thing which i am typing out.... bear with me!!!!

hmmmm.... Sigh!
For now thats all....

My love....

He came like a breeze to whisper in my ears,
That he loves me
He very slightly lingered around my feet
To play with me
He spoke to me many things
Without uttering a word
He threw open my hair
Just to play around with it
Looking at him is a treat
And i know for sure that his beauty is plentiful!!!!

Thats nature for you :)