Dreams!

Why do they occur? I get dreams when I don want them! They just come from nowhere yet with a bang to give me all kinds of excitement and scary thoughts. That’s when I realize that there is a very very scary side of me which is letting my thoughts wander to that extent!

I get weirdest of all dreams mostly with those friends who are very close to me and not so close friends. In my dreams those people who come in my dream, knows anything and everything about the other person, though they aren’t even aware about their existence in real life. This really fascinates me! Isn’t this fantastic?

I can think of three dreams right now. First one was about my death. Actually the dream started only after I died and how people were crying and few were laughing because I am no more! And when they were taking me to the cremation ground they pass through a bridge and due to lack of balance they drop me off in a river! And .. and… I don remember because I was woken up!:(


Second one is probably the funniest1 and the funniest part is “I am having a boyfriend in that”! ok.. cut down on the imaginations.. I was not making out and all. The dream was as clean and decent as I am!:) just the thought that I was having a boyfriend was funny for me to keep me laughing for the next two days! And I don remember that unfortunate guy’s face! Lucky for that imaginary guy!

Third is my favourite! I am in the jail! I have been sentenced a 1 year stay in jail for violating the traffic rules! And I am put among those people have killed and looted and done many more things. Oh ya! Two of my not-so-good friends where also there. The jailer was being very nice to me and he was the only nice part. This dream surely had many scary things because I haven seen any burglars in person and for me to see such people in dream was real big thing!

its the lyrics of a song which i feel that it has the deepest meaning abt the human kind and languages!i didn download it... wrote it from the song itself...


Katrin mozhi oliya isaiya
Poovin mozhi nirama mananama
Kadalin mozhi alaiya nuraiya
Kadhal mozhi vizhiya idazha
Iyarkaiyin mozhigal purindhuvidu
Manidarin mozhigal thevaillai
Idhayathin mozhi purindhuvidu
Manidarin mozhigal thevaillai


Katru visum podhu disaigal kidaiyadhu
Kadhal pesum podu mozhigal kidaiyadhu
Pesum varthai pola mounam puriyadhu
Kangal pesum varthai kadavul ariyadhu
Ulava therya katrukku oruvam theta mudiyadhu
Kadhal pesum mozhiellam sabthakootil adangathu


Vanam pesum pechu thuliyai veliyagum
Vanavillin pechu niramai veliyagum
Unmai oomai anal kanner mozhiagum
Penmai ommaianal nanam mozhiagum
Osai thoongum jamathil uchimeengal mozhiagum
Asai thoongam idayathil asaivu kooda mozhiagum

proud to be a tamilian???

Namma Theru Vizha(Our Street festival) is an attempt to showcase to the Chennaiites what the city's all about. Right from its birth, art, culture and tradition have remained synonymous to the 'city of charms'! The brainchild of the Tamil Maiyyam and the Department of Tourism and Culture, Government of Tamilnadu, CHENNAI SANGAMAM started off with the gala opening at IIT-OAT on February 20 with a dance show 'Sange Muzhangu' running through the evolution of the 2000-year old Tamil arts, literature and culture.

Thappattam, karagattam, Oyilattam, mayilattam, thevarattam, Krishnan attam, naiyandi melam, china melam, periya melam, sakkai kuchi attam, kokali attam, puliattam, maan kombattam, poykalkuthiraiattam, jimla melam, thudumbattam, silambattam, kalaripayitru and koothu will share space with classical performances of other States, western music shows, choirs, string quartets, symphony, fusion, rock, rap and jazz. most of us would not have even known that tamilnadu has instore so many art forms!!! whoa!

Six days of undiluted culture is at display in this novel confluence, which from next year is going to be made an yearly Pongal feature like the December festival. Essay contest for collegers, revisiting old movies, anthem for the show, a 'Green Chennai' and 'Give Life' for street children campaign are also highlights of the Sangamam.

It is unconditional and to be shared
It is a sign of celebration
No expectation
No loss
No disappointment
No attachment
Only commitment
That’s love for u!:)

Entered a new world with no expectation
To just come across ten new people
In whose company I was my-self
To tell about my acquaintances
Are they angels or what?
For all the timely help and support from them
Getting to know them was a treat!
Razzmatazz came into existence
Another place to voice my crap
I met the Ms. Universe
A girl of values with an amazing heart!
Woa! The cute Bajaari of all times
Caring and sensitive baby is what she is
My best friend, deepa
A charming person with a radiant smile
Think of orkut and she is the GIRL
Vasu, she is truly fun!
This girl is synonymous to entertainment
And that pudy cat for you!
A sweet thing with a golden heart
She wins over with her vandichi tamil
With all the hissing these angels created memories to be cherished!
Here are “personalities”
Puky: my confidant
Neetu: my humshakal
Shil: my chweetheart
Viji: my Prodigy
Swat: my Hanumani(female form)
Arthi: the charm
Apoorva: vo oru payunna putha…!
Krithika: bommal attam…!
Suman: dulhan!
All of us are crazy people
Born to do crazy things
My mouth tastes bitter
Wit the thought that everything is over!
College life was fun
With all the learning gone into it!

She was late!
It was the "D" day
hurriedly came inside
dressed in red
with a bouquet of red roses
having no clue about her destiny
fear of his refusal dawns her

waiting in the table was the guy
the one of her dreams!
hesitantly she walks across
sits next to him
an air of silence surrounds them
with a shy smile on her face,
with the pink cheeks and the trembling voice she says,
having poured my life into yours
now its your turn!

When he smiles,
I am glad
When he shouts,
I am even more glad
When he feels touched,
I am proud of myself
When he tells something good,
I walk away blessed!
For all I know that
I have made a difference to someone’s life! :)

courtesy- shilpa for talking about something which kindled my thoughts!:)))

Longest ten seconds of my life!

Yesterday was fun! They took us to MGM Dizzee world. I know it might sound little kiddish. I thought the same thing and didn’t want to go! But I t was fun! Went for almost all the rides except for the water world!

One ride which is worth mentioning here ranger! It went 360 degrees! Well, how exciting does that sound? Yesterday was the first time I went for that ride and it was really great! And the best part was, I sat alone for that ride.. in the sense there were two seats in each row and since I didn’t have a partner, I had to sit alone and BOY! God only knows how scared I was! There was a point where we were made to stand over there in the air upside down for about 10 seconds! That’s when I realized how precious my life was for myself if not for anyone else! Just the way Ross declares to everyone that “its his second gifted life”(in one of the episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.) I declare that this is my second lifeJ
It was a real fun day yesterday though the after effects of yesterdays suthufying!

Random thoughts
something which affected me in a big way..
1. Character is something wat i am when noone s looking at me...
how true is that?!?

2.Wat is win in life?

3. Are u living your life to the fullest???

4. circumstance VS urself... whos winning?

5. Are you at NOTHING?

Harder lessons of life!

I was happy, when I was born
There were always ten people around me
To notice me laugh, cry and play around
The world of toys it was!


In my childhood days, I was excited
Was waiting to grow up
Liked to be treated like a grown up
Having a whole bunch of new friends

Then came the long awaited adolescence
These days still very fresh in my mind
All the teasing and major fun i had
The crushes and first love!

End of schooling, I was happy than ever
I became an adult, Lots of responsibilities
Total new world with new people
And I am struggling to face the world
Why were all the hype created, I wonder?!?

Mylapore festival

There was this mylapore festival in mylapore(duh! obviously) in the first week of the new year. After much compulsion by my dad and mom i went with them. To be very frank with it has been very very long since i went to the pakka mylapore side.. i mean though i live in mylapore, i haven been to the "REAL MYLAPORE". I really thought it will be boring will all the puja articles being displayed for sale which doesn't suit my interest. But it was to my surprise... it had real good stuffs to buy. starting from the usual mami stuffs like pickles to all nice bags and accessories to puja items to most importantly good food. the pakka brahmin iyer food was there. It was fun. More than fun it was a good change for me to see different kind of people. Oops almost forgot.. they were from my community. totally different people with pakka acharam still. They still see all the echal, pathu stuff.

oh ya almost forgot!
i did buy a bag which i like the most! the favourite bag ever!

On a solitary walk!

Today there was a rally for AIDS awareness conducted by my college. The walk was from Gandhi statue to Anna square. I wouldn’t say that it was not a long walk, but I enjoyed myself totally. Still my legs are hurting because of the walk but it was FUN! A day to be remembered in my life.

Firstly, the walk was in the beach. I always love walking in the beach be it in the hot sun or in the rain! Whatever it is, It is fun! I don need any friend or and anyone to walk with me. I love being alone at times. It sometimes goes to the extent that I just don’t feel like talking to anyone at all!

The breeze was just too soothing and it was totally refreshing every nerve in my body! There were around 4000 people around me walking in the rally, even my own friends going all cranky( they had totally lost it!) and few were quite thinking that they have to behave very well in the public and the stuff! but I continued to be in my dreamy world! God knows what I was dreaming about! I don remember it!

One horrifying thing was that there where some jobless creatures standing in the road to just look at us and pass comments. They were rating us as though they were looking at something on F TV! Brainless chaps I tell you!

Other than that, the day was brilliant! This walk made me realize a lot of things about myself!
this is one thing i would probably be thankful to my college!

As usual I am back!
This post is just a report on what happened in college today. I am feeling very happy and excited today! Don know for what reason because nothing special happened in college. I was just sitting all alone in coll, except for two hours (I think) Apoo sat with me.
They all left for FM stuff. i was not a part of it and so was sitting in class. I was glued to the new book which I am reading now, riot by Shashi Taroor.

Today we had two entrepreneurial classes and two IT classes and one management accounting hour plus one counseling class! So that tells how boring and tiring the day would have been! But I don know… I am just too enthu and left to myself I guess I will go run the whole stretch of the beach now! I have this super level of energy right now. And I want to go out somewhere preferably beach but I don know. Mostly NO cause I will have to go alone.

But one point is for sure, being alone, doing things alone, and staying alone at home or college has become a routine for me. Before and all, I used to be super excited and happy when I used to stay at home alone. But now, I am getting tired of it! Really tired! Mainly when both my brother and mom go out(my brother always wishes that it has to be that way or it will be some place where I wouldn’t want to go)L. But now really getting sick of it! I have stayed one whole day at home alone without even having to see any human species around me except in the idiot box! Hmmm.. well, chuck it I don wish to go further and spoil my mood. I am happy now;).. so will continue being happy and excitedJ

I came back home at sharp at 5.13pm. and the college got over at 5.05. so from this u can jus calculate the time which I spent in college after it got over( and it takes minimum 10 minutes to come from college to my place). NOT EVEN A SECOND I WAS THERE after it got over. And moreover there s noone to stay with too..

Its exactly three days since I started going to college after Ca exams, and guess what.. I don want to go to college. Never has it happened that I have REALLY REALLY hated to go to school or college but this time, I find it more like a burden! Its so heavy to carry on that I decided to tell it to someone. And I found that I had noone around me. Then, I thought about the blog and now I am posting it online. I don even know whether I should post it or not. But still… I am doing it because I don have anyone to tell to. Rather, I don know how others will react to my problem.

Until the month of September, things were going excellent because Pavi was there with me. Even if Neethu had joined office by that time, we both (me and pavi) spent sometime together after college and so things were going great. After that, my Ca exams and semester exams came up, so I was making myself get involved with a life without the two of them. Things were going fine( thanks to the deliberate effort which I took).

Never in the history of my life have I ever come back from school or college so soon! Nowadays have noone to talk to freely, noone to share my thoughts with, noone to rely on! Rather these days I feel so very depressed that I don’t feel like doing anything, neither do I neither message anyone nor talk properly. But people around me ask as to why I am like this and I put a false image of myself like just fooling around! I hate it from the bottom of my heart! I hate it thoroughly!

Things have changed! Feel as though I have lots to learn about people in life and that even those people whom I consider close to me are not the same as what they appear to be!
I know for a fact that this post is becoming a very depressing one but still I can’t really help it!

Umarao jaan!
A flop show!

To sum up this whole film, its nothing but a disaster!
Sheer waste of energy time and money.. you might be asking me as to why I went for this movie then?
The answer is because my brother bought the tickets for this movie inspite of telling him not to buy tickets for this movie. The movie for which I wanted to go was DON. But he messed it up just because he had seen the movie already with his friends two days backL.

Now coming back to the movie, its nothing but the newer version of the old movie. The director has given it more colourful. The resources invested in this movie is all sheer waste. Aishwarya rai, has wrinkles on her face and she looks old!
Consolation to the movie are abhishek and sunil shetty(both don’t have much role to play though).
Shabana Azmi as usual comes out with a neat and a flawless performance.
It needs a lot of patience to sit through the whole movie. Each and every scene is very long. And the story also does not have a proper ending. Its too abrupt, but by that time the audience is too relived about the fact that the movie is actually over that they are not much bothered about the ending.

I have seen historical movies, but I don see any point in this movie being retaken for any reason without nay change from the original version that too when the whole trend is about giving fast paced racy movies. Umrao jaan fails to satisfy any of the demands of the present day film goers!

To break the jinx of the blog of mine.. Here I go posting something about diwali!
This is one festival I have always looked up to.. This is because of some reasons.

Nice movies are put on TV on diwali day!
Lots of sweets to eat and put on 10kgs extra!!
Get to meet relatives which is not possible on the normal days!!!
And of course we get to burst crackers (though this crackers craze is not anymore in existence)

Ten years down the memory lane, if I sit back and think as to how Diwali was celebrated by all of us, it was all different. There were around seven of the kids at home all excited about the new dress which we had bought and the crackers. The day before diwali, we wear a new dress, burst a little bit of crackers. Then rest of the day was spent in keeping things ready for the next day. The next day morning, get up around three and have oil bath, wear new dress and burst crackers and go to the temple. The whole day used to be fun filled spending time with the whole family. It used to be fun!

Now, things have changed, I mean the craze for crackers have gone but the usual fun is always there. Nowadays there is no “whole family meeting”(cause things have changed) but still enjoyment is always there in my small family of four!

This festival has its own story. Actually there are two stories attached to it.

One is diwali is the day on which goddess Devi killed Narakasura..

The other one is this is the day on which Rama returns back to Ayodhya after killing Ravana.

Happy diwali to one and all!

This post is all about an incident which just happened now.. just now..


Well.. it all started with that bomb blasts in mumbai.. from 7 o clock there have been so many people, all relatives and friends calling home to find out whether my brother was safe because he was previously posted over there. But now he is now in banglore along with my father. Infact only after they told us about the bomb blast did we even know that there were bomb blasts in mumbai. Then after that we were watching the various news channels to know actually what had happened. My mom and I had our dinner around 8.30 and were watching the usual horrible soaps. By the time all those got over it was 9.30..

Then its only at this time that it strikes my mom that my brother had not called her today! she as usual gets all panicked and calls my father and asks him whether he is back. And dad tells that he is not back and that since he still continues to have a bombay line, and since all the lines are jammed because of the bomb blast, this number was not reachable. My father was even more tensed and he goes to the extent of calling up his company to get his colleagues numbers. Both my mom and dad were trying sincerely(infact i was also trying coz it was a bit tensed about the whole thing).

Then comes the turning point when i ask my mom to call up one of my brothers friend who is in chennai. First my mom is all hesitant to call him and disturb but i give her all courage and support and make her call him. His friend had told my mom that he will find out and let her know in few minutes. In the mean time, i keep trying his number and so is father trying out all bombay, uttar pradesh(numbers) and what not! phew!

Then within some ten minutes or so, we get a call from banglore, it was my father and he had called us to tell that my brother was back( it seems like it got late in the office). My mom was relieved, so was my father, infact he was very very very much relieved. But my brother was in a VEEEEERRRRYYY BBBBAAADDD MMOOOODD!. this is a usual behaviour of guys, they don like their parents especially their siblings to call up their friends and ask them whether they know anything. Same was the case with my brother. He was shouting at my mother and father. In order to be alive i didnt talk to my brother only.

At this time, i had only one thought, i was just praying that my brothers friend should not have called him and told that we had called him to ask about sudheer! My mom immediately calls up sudheer s friend, but unluckily he had told sudheer everything and when my mom called him, he is just laughiong his heart out. My mother gets all embarrassed and keeps the phone.
today was for sure an eventful day! atleast something out of the usual happened which made it likeable!
it was funny.. all was only because of that bomb blast in bombay!


p.s.- my deep condolenses to the victims of the bomb blast

Forwards.. the most irritating stuff!!!

Well, the fact is that before and all I was also getting carried away by all these forwards and used to sit and religiously send the forwards to each and every person in my phone book.. I cant even believe that I was that jobless!

But thank goodness atleast now I have understood as to how dumb it is to forward them. It’s better to always to type it out in simple words whatever you want to say and send it instead of forwarding some shayiris and all. I have always wondered as to why people take so much of pains of forwarding them when sometimes they might not even mean that.

The worst forwards are those good morning and good night messages with all those teddy bears and roses which tell that “ I brought these flowers or teddy bear only for telling u a good morning/night”. CRAP! Utter crap. If anyone wanted to wish good morning or good night they can either send it as a personalized message or even sometimes if they are that desperate, they can even spend on a call. But they end up adopting the worst means of communication!. Well again at this point of time, I really want to tell that I was also a victim of these stuffs. I used to really bug three of my friends(chikki, arthi and swathi) with innumerous forwards in a day! I really feel sorry for them. Rest of them I don even message them.

Next are these fun type messages.. i.e. tell me one thing which u like the most in me or something like that. Though they are kind of bugging in true sense but they are fun. Atleast better than those good morning good afternoon messages!

But again there are these real nice forwards. Few forwards are really cool.. especially the jokes..

At last, one thing is for sure.. there are totally four people glad on this earth because I stopped forwarding these forwards. They are arthi, swathi, chikki, and myself.

I am happy for myself!!!:)

The black mark season..

In my school, there is a custom that whomsoever behaved badly or fought with anyone( I mean physical fights like hitting, biting etc) or whomsoever were talking in class or irregular submission of homework were given a BLACKMARK. There were thirty boxes in total, and after a student gets ten or twenty or thirty black mark he or she will be asked to go and stand infront of the principal room for the rest of the day. If that person was lucky enough he or she will get it in the beginning of the day so that they need not attend the rest of the classes.

Well, when I heard of this word, I thought that they will just keep some record of these and will just keep a black point against the name and that’s it! But as usual I was wrong. It had many more things to offer. This was basically like a chart stuck in the class and each one of our names were written on the chart and each one of us could see the number of black marks which others got! Initially when this was started, it was more of a terrorizing factor for all of us. I was very scared and I behaved like “good girl”(sounds ironical right? Well that was me). The first year after this came into existence I got NO blackmark and believe me I was very very happy. That year during the hols I went around people and my flat friends telling that I got NO black mark.

Then the next year came, by that time I had got bored of staying like a good girl(dog’s tail cant be straightened u see) so again I started of with all these talking stuff and irregular submissions etc etc.. after a point of time, everyone in my class especially the guys had this competition kind of thing in which they competed against each other as to who will get the maximum number of black marks in a year. Infact for few of them, they were really bratty that the thirty boxes which actually given were not enough. They needed MORE!! And best thing was after this came up, everyone of us were very much aware of the consequences of anything which we do. Maximum punishment will only be two or three black marks at a stretch.

And I was lucky enough to get 13 blackmarks(most of them for talking in class or not doing homework). I was infact feeling thrilled on the day when I got my tenth black mark because for the first time I was allowed to bunk classes like this with the teachers permission! But to my utter disappoint it was the last period and so it was no point for me to bunk the last hour because the last period was anyways P.T. or something!!

Bad luck u see!!!!

Morning walks… and the park…

One thing for which I have always had aversion is nothing but waking up early and going for walking. It has always been near to impossibility for me to get up in the morning for morning walk! But ironically, I have started doing the same for the past four or five days. I am really amused by this fact!

I really have to tell about the place where I go for walk.. it is actually a park very near to my place, the name is nageshwara park. Earlier this park was known for its untidy dirty environment. The park had garbage thrown all over the place. There were iron rods here there which were broken and were very badly rusted. And most importantly it was known for the urinated smell, which it always gave because mostly people went inside that park for that purpose only. So undoubtedly, it was full of mosquitoes 24*7. the nearing neighborhoods were suffering a lot.

The turning point came when the ‘sundaram finance’ took up this the park and decided to renovate it. Now its undoubtedly its one of those very few parks which are very well maintained and its full of greenery. Morning walks have become a very common feature over there. Thus in the process reduced the crowd in the beach to a very great extent. The people from in and around this area prefer coming to the park and once you become the regular walker in the park, you will come to know many people. This park has many more to offer. There is something called the Laughter club in which people stand in a circle and laugh in all different ways possible. This has been scientifically prove very healthy as it is known that ‘laughter is the best medicine’. And again there are free yoga sessions provided.

There are no interesting characters as such in the mornings who come to the park for walk, but the fun or the gala time is only in the evening when the tiny tots come there to play. There are just too adorable. But one thing is for sure. None of the kids are regular to the park so its kind off difficult to catch up with their names.

Once when I had gone to the park in the evening around four out of sheer boredom of sitting all day alone at home, I saw two kids who were actually sisters playing in the park. If I am not wrong, I think the elder sister was around 5 years old and younger around 3 yrs. I was looking at the way in which these two were playing and the younger one comes to me and pulls me and asks her to come and play with her(in her language which I didn’t understand but I had her sister help me out in decoding “THE CODE”. After sometime of play the kids leave home and for the first time in my life I even experienced something very new. It has never occurred to me.. I was sitting under a big tree and slowly I began to loose myself and started admiring the nature’s beauty. There was noone next to me and the place was in absolute silence. I was able to listen to the minute of the chirping which the birds did and was able to fell the cool breeze of the wind. It was slow and cool and I felt as though there was also a melodious tune of flute accompanying the wind. Considering the fact that I am a very very very restless person and I had always not believed to all those nature poets whose poems we were asked to read in school. But that was one day which made me sit over there for about three hours continuously. I was able to feel my world, my freedom, my nature everything of mine.